Job Search

I am torturing myself with a job search this evening. I do not know why I am doing this, as at the present time returning to work is as far off as a full night's sleep, or a fancy night out for me and Rob (well just me actually as Rob is having a night out after work, while I have an early night so I can run in the morning, the excitment is killing me!) I am feeling the role of the down trodden housewife too much, and I need an escape. Why don't I look for something acheivable? Because I do like to make life complicated, and spend time gazing into the distance with a wistful look in my eyes. I must learn to take pleasure in the little things, like Josef cheering because his friend is coming to play tomorrow, plus his mum so I will have company too, see there's a positive already. I must repeat this as my mantra, until I find my balance, or is that too much hippy shit for one evening?